Ercassesanwi - October 11th, 2004
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Why am I suddenly hot stuff?
Suddenly shy girls with long hair who take dance lessons are in? I don't even know how to react. I'm more mystified than gratified.
I was invisible all through high school. I continued to "date" my eighth-grade boyfriend, meaning we went to two high-school dances a year, for two years until he decided he wanted actually to go on dates but with someone else. I went to a women's college and spent four years, excepting about two months after being in a summer musical and the two or so times I "went out" with a friend from a college Christian fellowship who later left town without telling me, entirely without dating. These three (all in my nearly twenty-three years) dating experiences followed weeks- and months-long periods of acquaintance and friendship and were followed by years-long periods of no dates at all. I had never been solicited, "picked up," or asked for contact information by a male otherwise.
So what is the deal now?
I have had three romantic solicitations within less than a month of each other. One was from a guy I had seen only that once and another from a guy I'd seen two or three times in a large, crowded setting. Both of those times were at dances (real dancing with a partner, not the standing-and-shaking thing people do now at clubs). Three may not seem like a lot to most people, but consider my record: short-lived periods of two or so dates followed by years of none. I don't know how to flirt. I don't dress flashy or sexy. Guys have never approached me. What is different about me now? I still have my unfashionable thigh-length hair. I still talk about language and literature. I still clam up around strangers and won't go anywhere without a close friend for morale (and I mean "morale") support.
And the weirdest thing about it is how much it disconcerts me. I guess I should be flattered? It just seems so surreal.
--EDIT-- When I spell-checked this entry, there were no errors! That is a first for me.
Current Mood:  confused
Tags: dating
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